Have I found you, flightless bird?

It has been 4 years since I start reading the first book of Twilight Saga. And now, the first part of Breaking Dawn is already showing in the cinema.

I found a seat, sat down, the lights turned off, and the movie starts. The song "Flightless Bird" started to play in Edward and Bella's wedding, memories start flashing back to 3 years ago, when you were sitting beside me, watching Twilight with me.

This song was hidden some where until it was played again. It is such a pain for me to remember all this, the good memories and the bad ones.

How much I wish I could watch the whole series with you but I ruined us. You always stay in my memories, so near yet so far. How good if I wasn't that playful back then; How good if I know how to appreciate you; How good if I have your broad shoulder again; How good if I....

Yes, this is how pathetic I am now, hoping for the impossible wish to come true.